Ana Claire went to the doctor today. She weighed in at 27 pounds. She is now in the 10th percentile for her weight. She is 38" tall. This puts her in the 25th percentile for height. She has had a big growing spurt, she was in the 5th percentile for her height last year. They estimated she would be 5'2" to 5'3". So I guess time will tell. It is so hard to believe that she is four. It seems like yesterday she was placed in my arms.
December 13th marks the anniversary of our referral. I love this child more than I could ever imagine. People have asked me if I love her any differently than the boys. I guess some people may think there should be a difference since the boys were ours biologically and she is adopted. The answer is I love her the same. She is truly my baby girl. I don't look at her any differently than I do the boys. I struggled in the beginning with each baby but in a different way. With the boys the bond was naturally there. I loved them from the moment I knew I had conceived. With her we both had to work on bonding. I loved her from the beginning, but she had to learn to depend on me for her needs and then she had to decide that she liked me. There were some days when I don't think she liked me very much. I know now that this baby girl loves her Momma and I love her to the moon and back.
Josh was our colicky baby. I love him dearly, but there were some days when he would cry all day and I was frazzled being a first time mom and feeling helpless when I couldn't comfort him. When the colic finally disappeared, he was the happiest little baby. All smiles and giggles. He was and still is the Energizer bunny's twin brother. This kid is always on the go.
Clay was premature and sickly. He was very needy in the beginning because he was so tiny and sickly. I felt like I needed to protect him from every germ in the world. If there was anything weird to be gotten, this child had it when he was little. He was also a great napper. He is healthy now. I am so thankful for that. He is into sports and is our laid back child.
Ana Claire had more emotional needs that had to be met. She was very slow to trust us. For a long time I was the only one she would let meet her needs. She thought I was supposed to do everything for her. Looking back over the past two years, I am hoping that as close as we are now, she will want to always have a close relationship with me. She was very scared of men for a long time. Today she is still stand offish to grown men. Now her brother's friends are a different story. She says they are all her boyfriends. It will be a long time before she dates. I am thinking 30 something sounds good. She is our sassy child. She made my heart whole and our family complete.
I love my family dearly and I am so thankful that all my children are healthy. That in itself is a gift from God.
I don't mean to bore anyone here, but I use this blog to help journal, so we can look back and remember somethings. Today was one of those days I felt the need to ramble.